I'm Losing My UMPH

I am having a hard time with motivation still. I need to find a way for me to grab on to what ever motivation I can and run with it.
I have basically stopped counting calories. I don't know why. I just haven't been doing it. I have missed quite a few workouts in the past week. My water intake is getting better, but that doesn't change the fact that I am GAINING weight. It is so frustrating.
I need to get back the enthusiasm that I had last month.